Random Ponderings

As I mentioned in a post a while back I have decided to undertake a project in 2010, to try and put together in the form of a book, my thoughts on ‘why youth ministry?’ The goal is to somehow try and nut out, in a more refined way, exactly what I think about youth ministry, its place in the 21st century church and its role in the secular society that we find ourselves living in. The main purpose of this project is to help clarify my thoughts in my own mind. It is to help me better understand what I actually think.

One of the first steps in this process was to ask some close friends in youth ministry to suggest some good books to read so as to expose my mind to the shaping thoughts of the current thinkers and dreamers in the youth ministry circles. From this I have formulated a pretty extensive reading list that I have started to work through. So far this has done exactly as expected, it has opened my mind to the many, many different idea’s and philosophies that exist in the church today. This was to be expected, though I think I naively expected this to not be as challenging to me as it is.

The main thing I am noticing is that any discussion on ‘why youth ministry’ is inevitably and intrinsically linked with a discussion on the future of youth ministry. If youth ministry were not to be part of the future then we wouldn’t bother with they ‘why’. In fact it could be said we only consider the question of ‘why’ something will exist when we have come to the conclusion that not only it will exist, but that it needs to. So really, to discuss WHY youth ministry involves considering what the future of youth ministry will be.

This is where it gets tricky. The more I read, the wider the scope becomes. Every man and his dog seems to have some differing idea’s about what the future holds. Though there are many trains of thought that correlate, as any discussion about future trends there are many trains of thought that do not correlate at all. This therefore requires an element of decision making, which way do I think it will go? This is proving a difficult concept for my mind to consider.

At the moment I am reading a book called ‘Postmodern Youth Ministry’ by Tony Jones. It is a book I remember reading during my theology training and finding to be a fantastic resource and upon re-reading it I am once again challenged by what it asserts. I think what I find most disturbing is how much I resonate with the arguments it presents about post modernity, even if there are significant levels of disagreement dispersed amongst the agreement. What frightens me most though is how unequipped I feel to actually tackle these thoughts and apply them to discussing with people older than me, with more modern thinking patterns, why a postmodern approach to ministry and in particular youth ministry, is so important. I cannot even begin to grasp this in my mind.

I am enjoying the task of focusing my reading in a particular area and certainly intend on completing my 2010 project, but right now my task is definitely growing by the day and definitely making me think this process, for me, may well take much longer than a year to complete. This is not necessarily so bad, but for someone who has grown up in a world of ‘now’ it is hard to imagine keeping myself focussed for a prolonged period of time. We’ll see how it goes. It is enjoyable, if not also thoroughly frustrating!

Job Hunting

Now that I am back in the real world (even if this week I am still in holiday mode!) I have begun hop around the dreaded ‘job hunt’ circuit. I can’t say that I extremely excited about having to find a job (but then really, many people are not) and it will definitely be hard to adjust back into a life of work after 4 and a half months of travel! What is most difficult for me right now is I will most likely have to settle for some mundane, boring job that doesn’t at all inspire me. Sure, it is possible I will find something stimulating…but the chances of this are probably pretty low. For now I only need a 6 month job, so that limits what I can apply for. I refuse to do the dodgy on an employer and lead them to believe I am looking for a long term position, I am not, and I value my integrity too highly to ‘pretend’ to be looking for more than I am. As such, temp contract or casual work is probably all I can hope for. What makes it more difficult is I need to earn as MUCH money as I can with my hopeful migration to the US in 2011 not being a cheap affair!

What is probably weighing most on my mind is I don’t have a fantastic track record when it comes to ‘sticking it out’ in jobs I simply don’t like. I’ve always had the philosophy that ‘life is to short to work in jobs I hate’ so…I basically move on as soon as I realise I hate the job. I realise posting this on the internet may not be the BEST idea but this time around I realise this won’t really be an option for me, whatever job I get I will need to stay with and this hurts my brain to think about!

When I left I expected to come back from my trip and return to the ministry journey that I still believe I am on. When I left I expected to come back and have interviews for youth or other church leadership positions, area’s that I have worked in and enjoyed immensely! I am still holding out vain hope that I will somehow stumble into a position with some Christian ministry that needs a worker for a short period of time but, once again, this is not highly likely.

On top of all this Matt 6 plays over and over in my head.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I should know this…I have preached on this passage on more than one occassion! I guess what I should be doing is looking forward to the opportunities that will be opened to me to ‘live out’ the Kingdom principles in ANY job I find myself in. I should stop ‘worrying’ about it all and just trust that God is in control. I should. But then, knowing something in your head and then having that get down to your heart can take some time!

We’ll see. Either way I DO know God is with me, just gotta keep reminding myself sometimes!

Finishing well

Probably right now the idea of ‘finishing well’ is at the foremost of my mind. As a person who feels strongly about integrity, I definately feel it is important for me to finish strongly, not to finish well before I leave the various roles I am in down south.

However, it has to be said that I am finding this difficult. My mind has moved on. I am constantly finding myself thinking more about my 5 month holiday(naturally) and my plans upon return than on the last 3 weeks I have at school and also in Margaret River. Finding the drive to complete what I am involved in down here well is proving difficult. I think this is partly because I really enjoy NEW challenges in amongst ongoing challenges, but with such a short time remaining there is no real ability for me to start or face new challenges…so completing the ongoing ones is proving more difficult.

I have just come back from school holidays and to say yesterday and today have been difficult would be an understatement. I was clearly reminded yesterday just how much there is left to finish. I felt tired just perusing my ‘to do list’. Very little of what is remaining is exciting, it is mostly collating data, working out handover material, cleaning spaces etc. None of this excites me.

I suppose one of the lessons I am being reminded of is that I can’t always rely on having enthusiasm towards something so as to do it. Sometimes we do have to do things that are NOT in our field of interest. In fact you could say it is how we treat THESE area’s that says a lot about our character and integrity.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to include things we get involved in that are actually unimportant, I mean area’s that are important to our role but may not infact be entirely in our area of interest. As an example, last year I undertook a whole school survey which the various chaplains have been doing here for 6 years now. The information from these has been very, very beneficial…but the actual collating of the data is extremely tedious and boring. It would be very easy for me to just leave this for the next chaplain, but I know how I would have felt if, when i started here, I discovered I had to collate the data from a survey the previous chaplain did. I am not excited about doing this, but it is important to complete this, finish well, and enable whoever takes my position to have a clean, fresh start.

Finishing something is defintely an interesting experience.

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